Jun 14

Soldiering On – A Journey With PTSD

Signed up to the army as a fresh-faced sixteen-year-old, Nathan had little idea of what was realistically ahead of him. Ten years of dedicated service later and a multitude of horrifying memories, the ex-soldier’s struggles truly began as he tried to integrate back into civilian life with no support.

As his mental health gradually declined, so did the world around him. Each day became a waking nightmare with vivid traumatic flashbacks, paranoia and a constant barrage of intrusive and violent thoughts. He lost jobs, and his home and relationships, lived rough, attempted suicide and narrowly escaped a prison sentence. Eventually, he was diagnosed with PTSD and Generalised Anxiety Disorder.

Nathan’s soldier mantra “adapt and overcome” demonstrates how a veteran can return from the brink of despair to finding love and leading a fulfilled life on Civvy Street. Now a fundraiser for other veterans – Nathan’s story brings hope, resilience, courage and a dose of good humour.

THE INVISIBLE GIRL

You can read my full story here, from when I was ten years old and what happened to me. I was admitted to a psychiatric unit at fifteen and continued to suffer throughout my adult life with feelings of self-hatred, fear, darkness and not knowing who I was. I used addictions to help me to cope on the outside when the inside was chaotic. I finally found my healing and had a burning desire to share this with the universe to give love, hope and inspiration to others in pain.

Don’t tell me the moon is shining; show me the glint of light on broken glass

Anton Chekhov